the good with the bad.

there are good days and bad days. 

lately its been a solid mix of both.

i am BEYOND stressed about my job, my home life, and my school.

which brings on more baddddd days.

absolutely nothing in my love life is going right.

and im just at the point of breaking. 

my job: i have grown to HATE my job.

when i started there i was IN LOVE with my job.

now, i LOVE what i do. i HATE where i work.

so its on to a job hunt.

my home life: i just want to move out.

yesterday.

i need outta this house. i need my own space.

my school: its just constantly needing attention. time and attention i dont have.

priorities?

it will pay off in the end....right?

my love life: all men are useless and unfaithful. i think i lost my person on july 21,2011 and thats it.

no one gets me like he did.

no one is anything like he was.

everyone is rude. selfish. not understanding. unfaithful. and a waste of time.

none of these men are worth meeting my daughter. 

none of them are worth my time.

and joe would be THOROUGHLY upset if i SETTLED for any of this nonsense.

so here i am.

alone.

waiting.

praying that God & my sweet joe won't let alexis and i be alone forever.

but waiting for the man that is intended for me.

accepting the loss of my better half will never be easy.

and i will never accept it.

i will just learn to deal with it.

accepting means i am okay with it. i will NEVER be okay with something like this.

just accepting.

heres to keeping my sanity. 

and finding a solution.

a new job.

a new study method.

a new house.

and a good man.

<3