missing you.

there is no other word for it.

i miss him.

my body ACHES for him to touch me. my heart ACHES to hear, "i love you babe. forever & ever"

i just want my life back.

i have been in a really rough spot. i don't feel like doing anything. i am failing out of school. i am struggling to focus at work. i am struggling to take care of my baby. I'm struggling to function. i just need my rock back in my life. and he is so far gone. i listen to my videos and that voice is so familiar, yet becoming such a memory. i don't want his voice to become a memory. i want to hear it now. i want my man to tell me I'm beautiful. to tell me i can do it. to tell me i am the greatest mother he knows. to just love me.

i have GOT to get OUT of this funk. not every day is like this, but lately it has been a string of bad days. blah.


can't a girl catch a break.