picking up pieces

monday we lost another member of our carter family.

grandma "granny" carter went to be in heaven.

she suffered long enough and she deserves to be pain free.

she was one of the sweeeeeetest women i will ever have the pleasure of meeting.

i will always remember how much she loved me and alexis and how accepting she was of us from the beginning. 

my time with her was short. but she was the greatest "extended" grandma i could ever ask for. 

she will be missed greatly.

but she is finally reunited with the man she loves, her late husband, and she is probably more happy than any person on this earth.

thats more than i can say for myself & that makes me envious of her.

my 21st birthday is in 5 days. 

5 d a y s 

until the day i have been counting down my whole life! 

that is such a weird feeling. 

i am very excited about what this new phase of my life has to hold. 

i refuse to settle for anything less than positive.

positive people.

positive events.

positive surroundings.

positive choices.

p o s i t i v e 

i cannot wait.

i need it.

and i deserve it.

its time to pick up all the pieces of what i have left

and make the best of it.

out with the old and the negative.

in with the new and positive.

even if that means im lonely and friendless.

i will be okay.

:)

pray for us tomorrow as we say goodbye to the sweet clara carter. <3