an LCD 32 in flat screen television has changed my life drastically.
this tv was the VERY first purchase joe & i made TOGETHER living ON OUR OWN. this tv will always hold a special place in my heart.
there are lots of movies watched on the tv, games played, and television shows watched on that tv. there are memories of cuddling up in front of that tv, FIGHTING over that tv, and carrying that tv around in our car for weeks ( LONG story) in the end, this tv holds majority of my memories with joe.
obviously when he passed the tv became mine. up until today the tv has been sitting in my spare room, unassembled and NOT plugged in. I would look at it everyday and just smile, but never nerved up to plug it in. well, i finally got gutsy with a little help from my kid brother and the tv is now assembled. turning the tv on for the first time was really hard. knowing that the last time that tv was turned out HE was watching it, that is really hard for me to think about. but that tv symbolizes my life with joe i think. that tv is like our other baby. he LOVED that tv. his whole life he wanted his OWN flat screen and he finally got it. <3 my tv.
and the tv looks great in my bedroom, and when i watch it i think about him directly. i know he is watching over me, alexis, AND his tv.
one more thing off my list. i really need to stop checking things off my list. i am doing it to seek closure and i am not finding it, but that is a post for tomorrow.
now its time for bed. <3 goodnight blogging world & more importantly goodnight my sweet angel. <3 i will see you in my dreams. i love youuu.
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