hallmark holidays

lets talk about these made up holidays. as a widow, i find them ANNOYING. honestly, before i met joe i wasn't a fan of them either and we WOULD NOT have celebrated them if it wasn't for him pushing it, i know weird right? but anyway.

i understand the meaning behind it, kinda. I do get that they are in place for people to express their love to one another about their loved ones. but heres the deal, most men forget, which in turn makes the women mad. and then you spend the week making up for the STUPID made up holiday that he forgot. is it worth that for a card and some flowers, MAYBE some jewelry? i think not. and honestly do you need ONE day to express your love for someone? are they not worth it the other 364 days of the year? joe and i showed our love daily and he would aways bring me little gifts or flowers or send me sweet texts that said more than any hallmark card could ever write. but anyway. the world will continue to celebrate them i assume. whatever they want to do.

after that horrid rant, i will SADLY admit i did indulge and buy myself a NICE gift for today. kinda like a mini pity party :)

joe bought me this necklace on May 10th 200...8? i think. maybe 2009? not important. it was our FIRST OFFICIAL days since he was outta school. he took me to Bravo's, we went to see Ghost of Girlfriends Past, showed up at my house with flowers and a card, and gave me this necklace. 

obviously this necklace hold serious sentimental value now, and what happens to it? i lost it. yep. when we moved the 2nd time. GREAT. so what have i been doing? yep I've been trying to track it down. so i FINALLY find it. and i ordered it and i bought it. was it cheap? NOPE. do i care? NOPE. i deserve it. is it the same necklace as the one he gave me that day, nope. but it is the design he picked out for me. and whenever i see it i think of him. i love it. and i will give it to my baby one day. it tolds my heart inside that tiny pendent. happy non existent holiday to me :) 

on a different note. today, i go into the laundry room to...do laundry. and i see this TINY TINY TINY lion shaped eraser, like one for children and i pick it up and all the sudden i remember that joe got me that out of one of those quarter machines the day i told him i was pregnant. thanks for the sign your still with me angel face.

i love you to the moon and back and i hope you spent the day with me :) xoxoxox.