hey baby.

today, i miss you. i miss you so much i don't know what to do with myself. i don't know how to live my everyday life when i lost my everyday life. i try to be super strong for a lot of people, but deep down. I'm missing you. and I'm missing everything we lost. I'm missing our saturday dates at TGI fridays. I'm missing our trips to Meijer. I'm missing you BLARING music in a parking lot and me slowly sinking into my chair outta embarrassment. I'm missing your texts when you couldn't sleep telling me EXACTLY how you felt about me. I'm missing someone to call when I'm SO PISSED at my job. I'm missing you. you and me. you made a promise and you didnt follow through. that isn't like you. you ALWAYS kept your word. i know you didn't choose this, but still. :( i need you more than you and i were aware. when i said forever, i didn't really understand the meaning behind that until it was ripped out from under me. :( what kinda life is this? what kinda life am i going to lead? a sad and lonely life? cause thats how i feel. our princess is 9 MONTHS OLD. can you BELIEVE that?! she is SO big and looks JUST like you. she IS you all over again. i hope your watching over her, and me. i know your watching over me. i SWEAR i felt kisses today on the left side of my forehead just like you used to. <3 your always with me. you must be a busy man. cause we run a lot. :) i love you baby. you will always be my baby tiger. i hope your enjoying your time up there. you BEST be taking care of jack jack. tell him his mama misses him and you better be giving him some cat nip like he loves & letting him sleep in your bed. your bengals are doing well this season, i know your helping them out. we both know they need it. lol. anyway, i will let you sleep or play games whatever your doing. lol. i love you boo. ill be seeing you.

love,
your favorite girl. forever & ever.