(be prepared for lots of pictures and a sappy note to my baby at the end :) )
at this time 1 year ago, i was SO sick i couldn't sleep, or eat, or cry because i was SO nervous about being induced at 7 am the next day. knowing your having a baby in less than 24 hours is probably the most nerve racking thing I've ever experienced. i thought my family and joe were going to kill me i was so worked up. but i lived. i got little sleep, and no food and was up at 6:00am the next day to go to the hospital to get rid of my basketball sized stomach.
this was me. one year ago on this night. aye. i was HUGE.
so after 13 hours of labor, 3 hours of pushing, and a baby who was face up, not coming out. my favorite doctor told me it was time for what i had warned him from day 1 i didn't want, a c section.
at this point, there was no fight i wanted her out ASAP.
so at 7:44pm on Jan 10th, 2011 our family of 2 became a family of 3.
weighing 7lbs 14.6 oz 21 in long Alexis Grace was the best gift we have ever been given.
there is not one part of that day that i don't cherish and i wish every day i could go back to that day.
for one day, everything was perfect. no arguing, no selfishness, everything was about that 7 lb baby wrapped in a pink blanket.
my sweet baby girl-
today you are 1 year old. you have been in this world for 365 days. little do you know, these have been some of the most difficult days i ever thought i would go through. you've had a rough journey baby girl already and you don't even know it. this year has dramatically effected both of our lives forever, but i promise you it will all work out in the end. so in the course of a year i have watched you go from a little teeny tiny baby who loved to be snuggled to a little monster running around my house getting into everything she shouldn't be. you are such a character alexis. you LOVE mickey mouse, trucks, your baby doll, your lala, your paci, food of any kind, getting into everything you shouldn't, anything technical, techno music, dancing and music in general. you HATE the car, being told no, when everyone isn't paying attention to you, when the dog(who hates you) won't let you touch her, ranch dressing, and water. you make some of the FUNNIEST faces I've ever seen. you can make just about anyone laugh. you have the cutest dimple on your right side of your face. you can walk, run, crawl but mostly you run. you have 5 teeth with 2 on their way in. you can't sleep without your paci and your pink lala. you love to look at yourself and facetime with just about anyone. you brighten my day on a daily basis. we have had a rough year kiddo. and you have no idea. without you i wouldn't be where i am today, i would have never gotten outta this bed on July 22nd. your daddy is always watching you from up above. I know you didn't get to know him as well as I wished for but I promise to tell you everything you could ever want to know, and I know our amazing support system of family and friends will be sharing their stories with you too. i have never seen your daddy grow up the way he did when you were brought into his life. he loves you with all of his heart and nothing can ever change that. you are his number one, and you always will be. you have your own personal guardian angel, and if you ever need him you can talk to him whenever you want. he is ALWAYS standing right next to you. how do i know this? cause he promised me he would never leave. and i feel his presence daily, and i know you are so little still, but one day you will know what i mean. i promise i will do my best to take care of you. i promised you the day you were born, and i promised daddy the day we said goodbye, but ill tell you that story when your a little older. i can't wait to watch you grow some more and see the amazing little princess you become. i am so proud of you already and i know your daddy is too. we love you SO much monkalips.
happy birthday sweet angel!
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