i survived her birthday with minimal tears. i made the trip to the cemetery to spend some time with my man. it was nice. cold but nice. when I'm there, i don't even feel the cold. sometimes i think thats joe. he's keeping me warm until he's ready for me to leave. cause all of the sudden it will get cold and I'm ready to go.
anyway. i took alexis to red robin and we had a nice dinner. wished it would have been the 3 of us, but you know i survived.
today was alexis' first day of day care. again, more tears. but i survived.
next saturday is 6 months. in 10 days i will have been without my everything for 1 half of a year. REALLY?! no. it seems like just yesterday i was making fun of him in the hospital. ugh i miss you baby boo.
the 21st may be something i DO NOT survive. and honestly, i don't care. i want to crawl in bed that day and pretend its not happening.
ill keep you updated.
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