"there are billions of people in this world and it only takes the loss of one to make me feel completely alone"
more kesha. cheating? nah this is my own game! like i said, Joe LOVES kesha. and honestly, i LOVE this song. When I first heard it on the CD I played it like 9 million times. haha. Joe was super sick of it! but its true, I am addicted to loving him. I will always love him and I enjoy it. I enjoy loving him, even though he isn't here anymore, weird? maybe. idk. i don't think it is. i love him and i love knowing he loves me too. feeling loved is a great feeling. but makes me miss him a little more than i did before i thought about this.
today is the day before my birthday. ugh. i keep talking to joe and telling him 1 day till my birthday just like i would if he was here :) and i know he hears me. but honestly, I'm not super excited. shh don't tell him. its just not the same without him. i miss him and i want him here to celebrate with. Tomorrow some of Joes awesome friends, who are now very special to me, are taking me out. such sweet boys :) taking the poor pitiful girl out on her birthday. haha. oh well, i appreciate it. The girls at work got me a nice balloon and cookies :) so sweet. Sunday is my cousins baby shower and Macs birthday! I am so glad I don't have to spend my weekend alone, although i always feel alone since Joe is gone. Surrounded by a million people i could still feel alone.
I made it through 8 weeks, only 8 thousand more weeks to go. ugh such a horrible thought. :(
babycakes- i miss you. come home to me. we need you. i need you. :( i am and always will be loving you handsome :)
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