day 24

i know i just posted my weekend, but this song deserves its own post.

Jaicko- Fast Forward

ohhh this song. i have been SEARCHING for this song for weeks now. and i couldn't remember it. and i couldn't find it on the 4000 CDs in our car. FINALLY on my way to work yesterday i found it! thank you baby! anyway, i loveeee this song. now it makes me a little sad, because my future is gone. but i try to remember when joe and i had planned our future and this was the song he played for me. " fast forward into the future, cause i could spend forever with you. fast forward into our destiny cause theres so much we could do" Joe and i were going through a rough time and he just kept saying we need to fast forward into a better time. when we have this all figured out and we are married and happy. and thats exactly what we needed. and we never got it. i was robbed. stupidddd universe. and in no way do i believe this is my destiny! no way at all!

i love you baby. and i still think about our future every single day. i miss you more with each breath. i love you baby love. i hope your enjoying heaven & your waiting for me.